Self-Destruct

It's hard to watch someone self-destruct

Harder when you love them so much

I watch the chaos

Wishing I could remove some of their pain

Late nights

No sleep

Many endless, heart wrenching tears

Lies and deception drove them apart

Keeps them apart

My words aren't enough

Only Christ can fix something so rough

And when it all gets to be too much

When a choice must be made

She runs

No thought to consequence

Without a word

It's impossible to see when blinded by tears

Wishing, praying she's all right

Trusting God to perfectly orchestrate

And just when I think I will break

When I can't take anymore

He speaks to me

"My grace is enough for you.

My strength is made perfect in your weakness."

Then peace washes over me

Because I can do nothing

But God can do everything

He holds her

It's hard to watch someone self-destruct

Harder when you love them so much

But easier to trust Him how loves her
More than I ever could.

~Jessica Gray